Wars, Battles and messages from the universe

A war can go on for years, decades and centuries... Battles are short and are usually decided by quick action one way or another.  The war between me and AGA rages on and I'm losing. I have an iPhone and I'm addicted to taking photos of my hair from some of the craziest angles. This week I zeroed in on the nap and edges of my hair. Both areas are strangely different texture than the rest if my hair. Armpit length sparse, and baby fine,  the nape is so stringy it can barely hold a roller.  It's hard to look at and hard to touch.

My edges are not too too bad but still very unnaturally fine. At this point, only the very middle all the way around my head is the only part that grows. It's so healthy that it's growing enough to cover all of my balding.  So far, it's 1 inch from my bra strap in the back and armpit in the front. I just don't feel much like celebrating the lenght when there's no undergrowth. I can only imagine if I weren't balding.... Sigh.

On top of the war between me and my hair follicles ... I still have "normal hair" problems. This week battle is breakage and dryness. Strange too is that the breakage is localized and fierce. I look at that section of my hair wrong and it snaps. The battle to hang on to what I have hinges on me stopping the breakage and additional damage.  I purchased and used new products that are supposed to curb this condition, but so far....

In "universe news", my co-worker who is Greek and addicted to lifting her dark tresses red told me today that I "have such great hair"  She said its "always so thick , and healthy and I love your curly sets".  After I thanked her, I Thought... I'm not losing, I'm still in the war and I'd better start listing to all the messages that the universe is sending my way and appreciate what I have left.  I keep getting these messages from the universe, always so positive and encouraging. 

 Acknowledged.

later~

Vitamin/supplement regimen changes

I've ended several supplements for the fall.  Fish oil is the biggest.  I've taken fish oil religiously for 3-4 years and honestly, I haven't seen any difference in my hair what so ever. No increased growth, no additional shine, or  resiliency.  SO, enough of that.

I ended Purvana.  I liked it initially but it contained high counts of vitamin A and when combined with my other supplements, it made me nervous. On top of that, there was some inconsistency in the product. Specifically, the 90 day value bottle's effectiveness when compared to the 30 day blister packs.  Check out Amazon for other opinions and reviews.  Either way, I added Skin Eternal which has most of the ingredients that I liked most about Purvana, like grape seed extract, dmae and alpha lipoic acid. I can say that I saw some noticeable difference in the condition of my hair.  When I switched from the 90 day to the 30 day package, my hair had noticeable increase in shine. No additional growth so the cost didn't make since to me.

I ended wheat germ oil.  I saw absolutely nothing with its use after 120 days.

I still take viviscal.  I am entering my sixth month, and honestly, its not worth the money either.  I haven't seen anything from it, certainlly not an increase in growth and no regrowth on my smooth spots.  1 more month and I'm done with it too.

I've ended Nioxin 3 times.  Yes, 3. Its been hard for me to let this one go.  This time it will stick, no matter what my hair looks like.  Its been discontinued anyway and nearly impossible to find at a reasonable price.  I've taken it for 3-4 years and saw only a slight thickening effect and some small "baby" hairs on my forehead.  They never grew past 2 millimeters. So less than 30 days and it will done.

I currently take Hair Omega, and I've pretty happy with it.  Ive taken it since June and I think I have seen some increase in growth.   Especially in the rear of my head. The front has some increase as well, but only slight.

I still take my b complex.  I think with all of the stress in my life, I'd better continue this one.

So there.  I am pulling  back on these money wasters, but I am glad I tried them.  Ruling them out as failure for me has been worth the money.

I will update my vitamin regimen again in the spring.

It's just how it is

My endo follow up went as expected.  There's nothing wrong with me but I am losing my hair. No thyroid failure, hormone wackiness, blood disorder.  "It's just how it is"  "Some of us lose our hair"  He did sorta of apologize for saying the I was a medical anomaly.  He said that if my biopsy indicates AGA then that's what it is.   He noted that I should just do what I can to hold off the inevitable.   blah, blah.  Seeing a doctor for hair loss seems like a true waste of time, resource and hope.

I can't say I'm not discouraged.  I am.  I can't say that I will give up, because I know I won't. I haven't mapped out a new plan yet.  I haven't decided on a reason to do so. 

Its just hair, I keep saying to myself.  I don't believe it for a minute.  For some of us, fo rme, its so much more.